| Hmmm |
[Nov. 4th, 2009|10:53 am] |
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So its been a crazy 4 years since I've posted to this thing..I think its time for a comeback... |
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| ahhhhhhhhhh |
[Apr. 24th, 2005|03:05 pm] |
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my uncle died today. |
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| Been a while |
[Apr. 5th, 2005|09:32 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | chillin | ] |
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| | pearl jam--release live in zurich | ] |
1. School is raging. I've never gotten grades this consistintly high in my life. Graduating in May (though Im taking 2 classes to finish up in the summer)Options afterwards are awesome. weather I move (betwen LA, NYC, Seattle and Austin) or not, I;m taking a year off and then pursuing an MFA/MBA program. There's only a few schools that offer both in a single program, so i have to kick ass on the GREs. I have a while though....:-)
And who knows, I may blow the fuck up without the masters degree, still, I want to study more, especially with my current photo J prof. He rocks so hard, and is so incredibly supportive-both artistically and journalistically.
2.Living Places-So, I moved into into my own crib. Super chill. Diggit.
3. Hanging with some really cool artists. Its incredible the inspiration you get when you surround yourself with positivity and creativity...check here soon for an upcoming show ( I have 3 out of 5 pieces ready)at Cafe Cero (recently purchased by my good bud Andy, who was nice enough to employ my craphead brother)
4. Old ghosts die hard. Ran into Travis Little at the Bluebird (who oddly enough came with a guy meeting Michael Bailey---who I brought...like 2 degrees of seperation?)Been talking to Ben a lot....that freakin guy. Just love him to bits and pieces.
5. The nipp thing is freaking rocking, and thanks to the boys in Future Jazz Project, I met the manager of the Fillmore, and I'm praying to shoot NIN-who still rock, I don't care what anyone says. We'll see, I sent him a CD and he was down. Word to that.
6. Trying to get to NYC on the fly. Just found out Brad Mehldau is playing 6 nights at the Vanguard in NOV and a date in Central Park in AUG. I am so fucking there. I have to see that man. And soon--he is one of the most brilliant jazz musicians of our time--any radiohead fans neeeeed to check homeslice out.
7. family is cool. micah is the next indiana jones. he's kicking asss in school-one of his profs (whose an emeritus) nominated him for acrazy elite scholarship and Im super proud of him. dad's doing well too, seems really at peace with so much. I cant imagine going through what he has, but if Ive learned one thing in the past few months...its that people need love a lot more than they need judgement. And the previous is more likely to be a catalyst for positive change.
8. Turned 24. Think its gonna be the best one yet. Almost sure of it. But being 6 was really cool....who didn't like eating dirt?
9. Sleepy tonite, I was going to go out, but I think Ill finish an essay instead. Weird, its not due for 2 days. Thats so unlike me.....we'll see. |
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| Crazy |
[Jan. 7th, 2005|10:11 am] |
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So, I was in panic mode all day yesterday because I donated one of my photos to this Tsunami benefit, and I havent been showing any work lately----can be pretty intimidating. But, it sold, with the highest number of bids--sold to a FOX NEWS REPORTER. CRAZY right? So, I'm getting my shit together, and getting a show on....YAY |
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| CRAZINESS |
[Nov. 20th, 2004|12:44 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
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| | Billy Holiday | ] |
Shot the Fray and Love .45 last night. Casey is sitting in twith the Fray, and I guess Herrera and co. were all out for last night festivities. I have to give him props (Dave Herrera)he's got a deliate job, and everyone has an opion, but I think he's got an awesome grasp n what's goign in the Denver music scene right now.
The Gothic was sold out. For 3 local acts--I shot the Donnas there like a week ago, and there wern't 1/4 of the people. Insanity.
Chris Henderson (the guitarist for 3 Doors)was in town for the event-it was cool to see him again, I didn't get a chance to talk to him, as I was shooting like crazy, but I guess Case got to meet him. Since he (Chris)single-handedly made Love .45 the rock stars they've so smoothly become (though, they've been aorund forever-they've worked hard)I mean----holy 16-year-old girls. Wow. I felt like the oldest person there---good pics. My website will be up BY next week, or I'm kicking my own ass.
Then we went to the MErcury Project CD release party-which was cool. I did the pics in the CD, and last night was the 1st tme I saw it--it looks pretty good. I would have chosen a few different shots but hey I'm stoked to be getting my name out there. I'm shooting Strung Out tonite and Yellowcard tomorrow. Then off to LA for the week. Craziness. YAY |
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| I left my heart in..... |
[Nov. 7th, 2004|03:46 pm] |
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| | caffeinated | ] |
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| | John Mayer---------why georgia? | ] |
Yay. I am going to San Fran next weekend with mama.
Should be very cool-we haven't taken a trip together in like a decade. Fiunny enough, Yo! Flaco and the Motet are going to be there next weekend. Ha. You can leave Denver, but it'll never really leave you.
I'm going to take my mom to dinner and to see the Motet-I'm thinking she'll dig em, and if nothing else-we can rage at the Boom Boom Room. John Lee Hooker used to own the place. I went there last time I was there with a fake ID and caught this crazy Zydeco band. I'll bring my camera. Those guys actually have a budget. NICE.
CAN ANYONE RECOMMEND A NICE RESTAURANT? I know it's filled with 'em, but I find friends to be a great source for tourism....sometimes.
;-)
It's between LA, SF and NYC come this summer, and I'm high-tailing it.
Denver has been so good to me.
But I gotta go for a while.....
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| CHRIST WHAT A SHOW |
[Nov. 2nd, 2004|12:55 am] |
Just got done shooting Trail of the dead and forget Cassettes. Jesus, I mean whoa. It was insane, oone of the coolest shows I've ever seen. They killed an entire drum kit-with a bass and some crazed fan played guitar with em, and there was dancing and craziness everywhere. whoa.
I mean...whoa.
I love when shows do this to me.
I'll bert those guys have suffered massive injuries as a result of their shows, ahh what we'll do for a love of the craft...
trail of the Dead straught killed it, but I think Firget cassettes is on the verge of something amazing. It's two people--a guy and a girl who just fricken RAGE. It's nuts. Wow. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOD.
Yay.
Goodnight, go vote. |
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[Oct. 31st, 2004|06:25 pm] |
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| | no, that's a good one | ] |
sweet.
Rockin weekend.
Haven't left my place since Friday and it's been wonderful. Had a raging-building wide party last night---what a weird mix of people...but good times all around. Ha ha. Really good times.Really, really good times. And I was beginning to fear I'd lost it...whatever it is..... |
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[Oct. 13th, 2004|02:46 pm] |
Just had a dope meeting with a bunch of big cheeses from the Colorado Press Assoc. Good stuff--looks like I may get a job after college.
YAY |
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| "..on the road, the only place a chic belongs is in the back of the van..." |
[Oct. 11th, 2004|10:32 pm] |
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| |  working | ] |
Overheard (on the internet) just now.
Wow, we've come so far.
HA.
new pics up at www.nipp.com
search under artists
then scroll down to see my stuff--i'm stoked
just added:
george clinton
david byrne
face to face
oldies:
sonic youth
bright channel
So, in other local music news, the Fray just signed with A&R.
GO CANDY ROCK!!! |
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[Sep. 24th, 2004|11:05 am] |
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You need a liscence to fish, drive-even get married. But any two idiots can have a kid. Working with children again, I am seeing a lot of this. It's so sad to see these wonderful little lives completely controlled by people who treat them as though they were mistakes. I want to take them all home and tell them there is love in the world-even if it isn't at home. |
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| HOLY PANIC ATTACK |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|12:51 pm] |
While checking for my book prices onine (HOLY GOD)It has occurred to me that 18 credits (9 being upper division journalism)is insane....but wait I can do this.
Abby and I decided we're gonna be school ninjas.
My weapon of choice will be a laptop (we pray and hope), coffee, a cd book with:
1.Miles-Love Deluxe
2.An arsenal of John Mayer (I'm such a junkie)
3.Pharcyde-LabCab
4.Aphrodite-Urban Junglist
5.Flaming Lips-Yoshimi and Satelite Heart
6.Stevie Wonder-Close Box Set
7.Led Zeppelin Box Set
8.Afghan Whigs-1969
9.The very best of Otis Redding
10.Brad Mehldau-Largo
11.Common-Like water for chocolate
12.EVERY SINGLE ROOTS CD EVER.
yeah good study tunes. im really nervous...frantic even.
IVE NEVER HANDLED 15 well....ahhhhhhhh.
Just working for NIPP--I gotta be focused and getting good material-I didn't take one photo class in school-so I don't have much there. Luckily a few club/gallery things might pull through---ahhhhhhhh I gotta get my shit together....
And Im running 24 kids 5 days a week. Yo, time to rock.
Im going to be a damn ninja.
On the reals.
4.0 or bust.
YO.
Let the breakdown begin.
BRING IT BIATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| hrmmmm |
[Aug. 8th, 2004|12:32 pm] |
Stupid LJ quizzes. Ya gotta love em.
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| Holy Good Luck Day |
[Aug. 5th, 2004|03:05 pm] |
Yo August Rocks.
I have cool furniture.
And I got a job as lead teacher at the after school program I worked at in high school-ots PT, so school and NIPP can be done@!!!!!!!YAY
Then I called the Fox to see if they had xtra tix to John Mayer's acoustic set tonite--and I got em.
WHAT A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| GRRRRRRRRRROOOOWL |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|09:18 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  tired | ] |
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| | april in my heart | ] |
I woke up all grumpy.
I don't like being agro.
I also don't like frontin' ass hoes who have to be bitchy because they don't have anything remotely intelligent to say.
I don't like caffeine jitters-but go without coffee? Whoa.
Shot Sonic Youth the other night. Holy rockin'. I'm shooting the Hives tonite. This NIPP thing is freakin' great. Yeah it doesnt pay (yet)but the free shows are killer. Yay.
And whoa portfolio.
I think I might be takin a trip soon. Any suggestions? It's just time to bounce out for a minute. Clear the head before I start hell semester.
its hard to stay grumpy when you put on billie holiday |
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| Hey Hey Hey |
[Jun. 30th, 2004|09:07 pm] |
So, I just got home from Taos. There's a reason they call that place the land of enchantment...but I'm not sure what exactly that is. Hmmm. Only a few more days at work. Andrew turns 21 tomorrow. Crazy.
HEY ALL MY NYC PEEPS--
I'll be there July 11-15.
Party...
6hours of driving through Pueblo rush hour--colo spgs rush hour amnd tech center rush hour makes me sleepy.... |
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| Ooof |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|11:31 am] |
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| |  sad | ] |
We just found out my Uncle has cancer. Dammit. |
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| HOLY FUCKING SHIT |
[May. 17th, 2004|11:29 am] |
Im shaking right now cause I just got this email from Daniel:
Date: Sun, 16 May 2004 11:47:19 -0700
From: "Daniel Adair"
Subject: Hey!
To: "Samantha Emerson" <emersons@mscd.edu>
Reply Reply All Forward Print Delete
I just got the latest Sabian Cymbal Catalogue for 2004/2005 and on the
cover
they used one of your pictures woohoo! That thing is in every music
store in
the world! I think you can order one for free online, they one sent me
one.
Maybe guitar center has one.
Awesome!
D
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. |
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| FOR THE RECORD: ABBY IS A F&$@ING BADASS |
[Feb. 25th, 2004|11:31 am] |
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| | uncomtorble in my own skin | ] |
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| | something loud | ] |
So, after last nights crazy festivities, Abby and I arrive home around 2:15. Wierd night in general, but hey it was MArdi Gras.
So, Abbys walking into our place ahead of me, and she sees one of our neighbors in a fight or getting mugged---we weren't sure, and I'm slowly creepin up behind her, ever so casually. Our neighbor, Mike, overturns the dude, who is banging his head into the alley, and starts wailing on him. So Abby grabs him by the back of his pants and jacket and tears him off the dude, thereby preventing a really bad accident of self-defense, as Mike is on probation and should not have been out drinking anyhow-and probably didnt need to be beating the shit out of a dude when the cops arrived, even of he wasd attacked. She proceeds to scream at the attacker if she sees him again shes gonna f*$#ing kill him. I'm dialing 911, and screaming, and more neighbors are beginning to arrive, the dude runs off....so we take Mike inside and nurse his head wound. It was insane. I'm still shaking.
Seriously, all this from a chic who feed her dog a vegan diet.
I guess last night I was swinging and talking scaruy in my sleep. Bad nightmares. I feel like I lost sleep the second I closed my eyes.....I need to get outta D-Town for a minute. I'm straight trippin. I feel like post-traumatic stress syndrome would be a comfort compared to how I feel after the last week. God, time for yoga. |
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| HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! |
[Dec. 31st, 2003|01:36 pm] |
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Hugs and kisses to all of you!
I hope it's awesome for everyone!
I have to work tonite, but dammit, let's remember to smile every chance we get-
not just tonite, but every night.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO |
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| PIece of Mind |
[Dec. 29th, 2003|01:33 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | cool | ] |
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| | KEXP | ] |
Making time for yoga is good.
Very good. I think the reality of everything is slowly sinkin in. It's cool, I just have to maintain a level head.
Editing photos like a mad woman.
Pics of the Antagonist madness headed that way soon.
Ha ha. Y'all look great...seriously.
Werd. |
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| football sunday |
[Dec. 28th, 2003|08:46 pm] |
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| | pleasant | ] |
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| | outkast-aquemini | ] |
jamal lewis is a badass
and my roomates can be dope.
even when im bitching.
ha ha.
had soooooooooo much badly-needed fun with abby. |
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| IM OK |
[Dec. 28th, 2003|03:41 am] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the naught y mix | ] |
everythings wierd,
ya deal though.
thats all ya can do right?
i can't stop thinking about...............
how much i'd love having you here.\\
among other things........... |
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| ...drunk.... |
[Dec. 24th, 2003|11:28 pm] |
and i so won'tdeny it,
I'll do my best
and i'm fine againd
try to stay sober
feels like i'm dying here
when i get lik this my jaw tutches like old habit sthat trook me so long to break..............
i got a student loan bil and a [resent from Daniel all in the same day........................
so fucking funny.
and monk called, and my boss told me to get off the phone.....hes got a temp of105, and hes not answering................eric sucks.
merry xmas.
ha ha
seems everythings gonna be fine for me////////
for myself... |
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| Fine Again |
[Dec. 24th, 2003|12:09 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| | Seether--Gasoline | ] |
After reading a couple other people's post I have to agree with them. Tyler's on to something with his suck it up theory...good call bro! And Bryan....ahhhh....you gonna read that shit on Sundays or what sucka? I've been chillin with Sara and I'll have her whoop on you if someone doesnt hear your shit soon. Or not. On a weird note,though my spirits have kind of lifted-I worry most about bringing down the people around me. (Living with someone whose got "bad lungs", that are seemingly getting worse at a scary rate, as she's DROPPING weight and doesn't like the oxygen tubes in her nose is getting t o me a little but I figure if I deal with that, be it discussing or drownning the bad voices with booze---Ill be better off than imploding.)It occurred to me that few of the many people I've met are better people for having known me. Usually quite the opposite. Still, I'm smiling....I guess. This years been realy strange. I think I'm going to spend the next week pondering the actions in 2003 I made that didn't fare me so well in the end. It all comes down to actions....words mean shit. Thats a big one. Randalls suicide...grandmas cancer...not a whole lot I can say or do.
weird year.
Happy shit? Paul gave me this Seether Acoustic CD of one of their shows. Monk mixed it, it's awesome. I got a website. Crazy I swore Id never need one. Its under construction, but as soon as I get that bitch up and moving PREPARE FOR TOTAL DOMINATION!!!!!!!!!!!! The world of art -music - writing - cheese -and photography will be forever changed. Thanks to my neighbor David for the assistance with all that....and then Gabe, my sweet beer drinkin buddy with as bad a potty mouth as Ive got. Short of shlepping p-cakes in my bed--he's turned out to be a helluva guy. Who doesnt like having a drinking buddy that lives across the streeet?
Wow, none of this makes any fucking sense.
I'm so all over the place right now. Scattered hectic tired wired and incredibly unsure. |
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| History Channel Specials |
[Dec. 23rd, 2003|02:02 pm] |
Finally got a day off from work and I wish I was there. I don't know how to be cool right now so much with the sperate family units.
I can't even think straight.
And Daine got fired.
Yay |
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[Dec. 20th, 2003|02:40 am] |
ahhhh
i dont know
i wish i was in nyc, at least i could go get a fucking drink |
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| I hate these things mang |
[Dec. 19th, 2003|06:08 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| | ale fillman--loud ass jungle | ] |
So, found out yesterday that Grandma's cancer is really fuckin nasty. Suspicions were made, but I guess (I havent talked to the docs yet)shes got cancer cells all over her little lungs and a big tumor on the right ventricle of her heart-which explains all the swelling shes had.
This sucks, not because I selfishly want her physical presence, though I do. Its just she's been a constant in my life for so long....hard to know that you're going to have to let someone go. Like its anything you can prepare for, or expect to know how to deal. I just can't even think of what to say to her now, considering I live in the next room, an it's going to be tough. They're talkin radiation but why agonize an 83 year old woman whose lived a completely full life? My boss told me last night I was working Christmas, and I disagree. Considering this might be the last one. Fuckers-that place is a joke.
Shes been in the hospital since Tues, she's supposed to be home today but Ive been waiting.
And then off to work. Game face isn't as easy to put on as it used to be......there are people far away that shouldnt be..... |
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| Piece of Mind |
[Dec. 16th, 2003|12:18 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | dainer flappin his jaw....we luv him | ] |
Home Safe...
Good time, great people, beautiful place.
Usual grey cloud of trouble behind me but hey, we could go at any minute, and I'd rather regret the haves then the have-nots. I wish everyone knew the joy one can feel when truly living. |
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| And still |
[Dec. 14th, 2003|03:13 am] |
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You'll never really let them go. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2003|11:01 am] |
OOOf
Okay Monk fed us too many vodka tonics.
Sensory overload and Im swimming in it
Im so glad to be with my best friend again
Weird seeing the tour guys but it usually is......
On some bad news my grandmas reallllly sick. |
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| Blah |
[Dec. 5th, 2003|01:59 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | Pleasant | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Thievory Corporation | ] |
This weather is nuts.
I'm almost done with these hellacious papers.
Life will be much better then.
Only one more year of this bullshit. I can handle that.
Hrrrmmmm.
No more procrastination. Except to get coffee.
And stop daydreaming.
Ha ha |
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| whoo-hooo |
[Dec. 1st, 2003|10:45 am] |
things are lookin straight up
had a great thanksgiving. except for working all day. but it made me stop taking things for granted, like the ability to have those annoying conversations wioth family members that teach you a lot about yourself....
got some crazy art project im working on that i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited about, but I have to hit a hardware store....more details later.
i leave in 9 days.
yay.
i won the football pool.
yay.
my car cost WWWWWWAAAAAAAYYYYYYY less than they thought.
yay.
i think the radio works.
big yay!
Heres to relentless positivity breeding more good shit!
and schoool is almost over. |
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| WELL ITS DAMN NICE |
[Nov. 25th, 2003|02:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
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| | tosca | ] |
So, forget all the crappy things at one point Ive said about my lil bro and his lady. Theyre fucking great. After Jenny bailed out (shocker) and the car died (again)--to the tune of like ANOTHER $500, chances were less than slim Id make it to NYC, and the thing is, its sort of a double whammy when I wanted to go......so Erin, while watching the game yesterday randomly blurts out to my bro, (we were all hangin out' her and I studying....)"Micah, we're sending Sam to NYC for Christmas. Don't argue. She needs to do this"
My jaw hit the ground and I thought she was kidding but nope.
And I swear behind every good man is an even better woman, usually an Aries (she is...)How nice.
So in less than 3 weeks, its still on. Opposition is no match for mois.Dammit. Coffee makes me fly. Jesus. |
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| Tired |
[Nov. 24th, 2003|02:40 pm] |
Hrrrmmmm.
Slow day.
Good. |
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| SOOOOOOOOO BORED and cold. |
[Nov. 16th, 2003|12:59 pm] |
Your soul is bound to the Burning Rose: The
Rapture.
"I go where my heart beckons me, and I go
with my head high. But sometimes, I get a need
until I bleed so my heart swims above my
head."
The Burning Rose is associated with passion,
intensity, and desire. It is governed by the
god Eros and its sign is The Flame, or Physical
Love.
As a Burning Rose, you can get lost in the moment
if you let yourself. You are a very physical
person, be it in relationships, work, or play.
You may be driven by your hormones sometimes,
but you know it's because you have to follow
your instinct.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla |
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| Hmmm |
[Nov. 14th, 2003|03:00 pm] |
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| | postal service | ] |
Postal Service is good, its like bumpin music for whiny dOOds.
Thanks B, I diggit. |
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| Or not |
[Nov. 14th, 2003|11:22 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | Grrrrrr | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Somethin trippy | ] |
Okay I give up..
See why I hate digital shit?
ITS DUMB!!!!'
Maybe this one outside the emp will work |
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[Nov. 7th, 2003|12:43 pm] |
Cheney motorcade causes extra backups during morning commute
PAIN IN MY ASS |
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| I love this song... |
[Nov. 3rd, 2003|10:36 am] |
Tangerine
Measuring a summer's day
I only find it slips away to gray
The hours, they bring me pain
Tangerine, tangerine, living reflection from a, from a dream
I was her love, she was my queen
and now a thousand years between
Thinking how it used to be
Does she still remember times like these
To think of us again, and I do
Tangerine, tangerine, living reflection from a dream
I was her love, she was my queen
and now a thousand years between. |
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| yowzer |
[Nov. 2nd, 2003|07:36 pm] |
whoo-hoo!!
What a fun weekend. Jesus. Worked on Halloween, it was okay. I dressed in one of my grandmas pimp ass 70's suits with a fuzzy pink halter top and pink tennis shoes. It was cool. Saw the Mercury Project, but missed the Future Jazz Project, damn, Tracy-time is a whole other entity. I'll have to catch them soon at Dazzle.
Classes.........ehhh. Its almost over. |
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| Sat mornin |
[Oct. 25th, 2003|12:38 pm] |
Yay.
Another day in paradise.
HRrrmmm.
BTW: Marc Hughes is the coolest guy I know. |
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| Same damn time |
[Oct. 22nd, 2003|01:02 pm] |
Bad news from B this morning. How very sad that another great artist has departed. by choice. Uggh. Makes my skin crawl. Every time I close my eyes I hear the words to a song I had forgotten a long time ago. And the dizzy aftermath is leaving me tired and questioning some things.
Today I will do all the homework I have been putting off....for fear of ehhh. Whatever.
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